Gratitude! Finally…Things are starting to look a little better. Honestly, what is really happening is that I am looking at things a little better.
I am a firm believer that you get what you expect from life, even if you don’t want to think you do. When you walk around bemoaning life and circumstances, you get more things to keep you down. If you are willing to look at life in an optimistic way, truly be optimistic to your core, see the good that is around you, you will have more good things to see. Even if it’s as simple as being grateful for matching socks.
It’s not that I had forgotten that. I did allow myself to succumb to the less that pleasant moments and circumstances. Yesterday I came across two videos that reminded me that I have more control over my life than I’m sometimes willing to admit. I cannot control the asshole who thinks only of himself and is unable to appreciate what I am doing. I do not have any control over anything or anyone outside of me. What I do have control of is what is inside of me and how I feel about those things outside of me. As much as I would love for there to be peace, love and compassion with everyone is my life…I can only create those things within myself. I can show them peace, love and compassion and not expect to receive it in return.
Since I’ve loosened up my grip on all the unpleasant shit that’s been going on, things have started to show up to reaffirm my better attitude. Little things, but each and every one of them has been acknowledged and accepted with a full and grateful heart. This is how I keep that ball rolling. Gratitude, for even the little things. Case in point, thinking the item I was returning was the $9.95 item when in fact it was the $34.95 one (yes I should know what each item was, but whatever)! Having warm weather and no rain on my son’s graduation…and allowing me to wear the kick ass dress I bought. Finding just the right outfit for the boy, and him finding the dress shoes he already had.
These are not life altering events…or at least not on the surface. Feeling grateful for each of these little things helps to align yourself with more things to be grateful for. Which in turn, can most definitely be life altering. This lesson has been shown to me over and over and over again, I’ve mentioned it before…and I know it is truth. So much so, that those videos I watched reaffirm these truths, because when you ask to be shown, it will be shown to you. Your truth…not what you hope to be true. That’s a point too many of us fail to accept.
There is an underlying deep belief in me that everything will work out. When I hold on to that, redirect myself to that truth when I’m feeling overwhelmed, the Universe delivers. I know there are a lot of people out there that do not believe this, and I’m sure I can’t convince a lot of them with just my words…but that’s ok, my life and the “luck” some people think I have, is tied directly to this truth.
So, next time I’m lying awake feeling overwhelmed and broken…I will bring myself back to gratitude for all the little things that are right. I will embrace it with every fiber of my being. This, and this alone, will pull me out of the darkness and back on the path to the life I am blessed to have.